Man do I feel emo right now

Yeah, seriously. Late at night and I can't sleep, because I slept all day today instead of going to Academic challenge, because I didn't feel good because of a lack of sleep that continues to plauge me. Probably because I spend so much time screwing around during the day, that I have to stay up late to get homework and stuff done. My mind is swimming with thoughts, as a result of not being tired, and I won't be too awake tomorrow. Thankfully it's only normal school. I might go and do some homework in a second. There's nothing else I'd be doing otherwise. I'm really scared that I'm headed for a crash. I don't even want to know how I'm doing in school. I've got some academic challenge work to do, I'll call my teachers tomorrow and get up to date there. Hopefully it will all get worked out. It seems everything else so far that I've been freaked about has turned out alright, so I think everything will be cool.

Almost over?

Yeah, there's not much left of summer. It seems as if it slipped under my nose. It's been kinda boring really. I'm just using this last week to finish up bales of homework. I know I'm a procrastinator, but I'm getting better. I really am. Only one book (I capture the Castle), 18 federalist Paper questions, 6 articles and summaries, and like 7 days of news left to go. Fortunately, my friend Eric may come over tomorrow. That means today I have to do some more work, so I can get caught up on the work I will miss when he's over.

It appears as if nothing has changed

Hehe, this summer was pretty boring. While it isn't over yet, it's been pretty much like least years, and while it was cool at the time being, it's getting old now. Oh well, it's still not as boring as school. My summer homework is being procrastinated, but not as bad as I expected. I've read 1 and 1/2 books for summer reading, but I'll try to finish Catcher in the Rye by this weekend. As for the news stuff I'm doing that daily, and I have a few days to spare. The federalist Papers are pretty boring, but I'm managing, and the third assignment I haven't started yet. I think I'll start it on Monday.

I got that new Neil Young Album "Living with War," and it's a great album, everyone go buy it now. I give it a 10/10. Also, I got Mario Strikers Charged for my Wii. Great game, if you're into Mario. But still, it's a sports game. the wi-fi is a high point, though, and so I must say 9/10. Oh, after reading Fahrenheit 451 for Summer reading, I must say it's a great book but has its slow points. Now, for the big one. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows came out last month, and I must say was the best of the series, and one of the best books ever. It just pwned my face to such a large magnitude. It's better than you are. 132542/10. Go read it now.



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I had a feeling this would happen

It's been a while since I've last posted. It's just, I don't really want to make a blog post if it's going to only be like, one paragraph. So now I guess I'll make a post, being I have enough stuff to post. So, School ended about two weeks ago, which is really nice. We went on our Six Flags trip, which was awesome. I got to ride all of their roller coasters,except two: the really wimpy white one, and Two-face, as it was being worked on. Well, now I've pretty much been on the computer for the rest of the break. It's going to be a lot like last summer. Additionally, I got a new guitar. It's a Japanese strat copy with a Fender neck and EMG pickups. Yeah, it's nice. In fact, later today, I get to play her at this party where my dad will be drumming and ol' Neil is playing lead. Neil's my dad's friend, he and my grandfather were great friends before my grandfather died.

Anyway, I've got quite a bit of summer homework. I'm not sure if I addressed the Social Studies assignment in the last post, but it's not all that bad. Just some news watching and questions. As for summer Reading, I've got to read three books and take notes on them. Of course, I want to read them all. So, here's the list of them:

1. Fahrenheit 451 - by Ray Bradbury

2. The Chosen - by Chaim Potok

3. Life of Pi - by Yann Martel

4. A Raisin in the Sun - by Lorraine Hansberry

5. I Capture the Castle - by Dodie Smith

6. Catcher in the Rye - by J.D. Salinger

I'm reading Fahrenheit 451 now, and I'll probably read Catcher in the Rye--my favorite book and I Capture the Castle.

So in other news, my Dad finally found a boat to buy. We've been out on it a few times, and it's really pretty awesome. I even tried knee boarding. Unfortunately, my upper-body strength isn't good enough to lift my immense weight up on the actual board. Oh well, riding on my belly is fun too. And trust me, it's pretty tough to even do that. I'm sick of being sick of my weight and saying I'll do something about it. Every time I convince myself I'll lose weight and stuff, but I never do. I seriously need to start it soon, though. I remember a few months back I was doing well at going out to jog every day. Oh well, this week, I think I'll do it.

Posted from School

Yeah, I'm in study hall and I'm really really bored. Really. I almost fell asleep on the computer. Haha these kids are coming in and getting their very large summer assignments for Honors English next year. I'll be getting mine for Academic Challenge very soon. Of course, it'll probably be just summer reading. Some of these poor kids have summer assignments for English and math. Poor kids. Then again, it isn't really all that bad.

Today, right now, is the end of the second to last day. Finally. It sure feels nice to see the year go down. Man have I changed over this year. Then again, I change over every year. Summers are times that I change a lot. Seriously, before last summer I was quite different, in my tastes, thoughts, and actions. Let's just see how this summer changes me. Maybe I'll change a lot, maybe I'll change a little. Who knows?

Tonight's the Eight Grade party; I'll go to it since a lot of my friends will be there. I really do hope it doesn't suck. Man I'm gonna miss this school. I still remember how scared I was to walk into these doors and how I missed the Elementary school. I still remember how much this building scared me. Now, it's old hallways and classrooms form a second home for me. Really, I'm gonna miss it when I leave. And I imagine it'll be the same way when I get ready to leave the high school. Wow, I'm already thinking of graduation. I wish I were a little kid again. It was just so nice. Now there's all this responsibility and care that I hace to deal with. It feels nice sometimes, but other times I long for a time when I was carefree and life was fun and new. And sadly, I know it'll only get worse.

Happily, I know It'll never get too rough. I'm sure that even though I'll be attacked by life in a few years, they won't be able to take art and music away from me. As long as I still have them, I'll be happy. And then, if I work hard enough over the next few decades, I'll have a nice retirement waiting for me. I'll be able to spend my old days in a nice house with my family and the things I love. Man, will it be nice. And I promise not to be any of those old people that can't seem to like anything anymore, when I get old and retire, I'll think back top these times as the best years of my life, but I'll also remember my longing for the time I would be in. I would know that the younger me--the one from the best time of my life--would want me to enjoy my older years. Then, I'll die when my body quits working properly. I know it's inevitable, and I accept it.

A distanced post

Yeah, I haven't forgot this ol' blog, but I don't like to post pointless crap until it all builds up and explodes. So okay, here goes. A huge argument I've had twice today is over the difference between killing and murder. Yeah, there is a difference, but it's kinda funny. People insist that murder is wrong but killing isn't. Lord knows, He made a typo with the Ten Commandments-- it seems like he meant to say "Thou shalt not murder, thou shalt kill for greed and nationalism."

The first argument was on the subject of war. The other guy seems to insist that killing an enemy in war is like killing a deer. He says that you don't murder a deer. Then he said the stupidest thing ever. No really, if we weren't in class I would have put that viewpoint in the ground. He says that if you believe they're deer because you've been taught so, it's fine to kill an enemy of war. Man that's so stupid. Whether you hide behind this "wall" you've created, you're still killing, just like they do. Killing terrorists for killing is very stupid. Now, some may say that they deserve to pay a life because they took one, but this is a silly idea too. If you kill someone for killing, then you now owe your life because you killed a person. '

The second argument was over capital punishment, or the Death Penalty. Like I said before, some may say that people deserve to give their life because they took one, but when you think of it, killing a killer is pointless and solves nothing. Killing a killer won't bring anyone back, nor will it allow anyone to benefit. Sure it'll prevent escapes, but so will good security. Killing a prisoner is what enemies of war do to enemy countrymen. So if you do support this penalty, add me on msn (frank011@comcast.net) or something. I'll be happy to debate. On the other side of this fence, I hate how killers are released on "bail" and "good behavior." No amount of good behavior will ever forgive what they've done. Nothing can cancel out a kill, jailtime just keeps people from escaping while keeping their human rights, which even the dirtiest or killers should still get.

So in conclusion, I have to say that killing other humans is killing, regardless of the circumstance (maybe with a few exceptions, like a dire act of defense). Even if it is for one's country. Fighting for one's country does make sense, our country does a lot for us, and we do a lot for it. However, the nationalism sometimes goes crazy, leading to a lot of trouble. People should be humans first and citizens second. On a closing remark, it seems that a lot of people who argued their viewpoints against mine were Republicans. Republicans, as we know, are usually very religious. This makes me wonder, whatever happened to "Thou shalt not kill?"

We have three days left of school! We also have a party on Friday and a trip to Six Flags next Thursday--after school is out. It'll be nice to have a big break before jumping into the high school. Well, this summer won't be totally free of schoolwork. We got a bunch of Social Studies homework today. Assignment 1 involves watching the national news for 50 days and recording headlines that piqued our interests, along with a sentence or few about them. Then we'll write a paragraph or two about two articles that we really liked or something by August 28th. Then we have some questions about the Federalist Papers, only twenty. Then we have to get a few magazine and computer articles on certain subjects and identify a bunch of political people. So yeah, there isn't that much to do. I could go on with more things now but I'm friggin tired and need a shower, so I'll post again sometime.

Some more random thoughts

I must confess, I am in love with someone. At least, I believe I am. I don't totally know what love feels like, or if I really love her, but she sure does make me feel nice. I feel like writing a poem so I will...later. Probably will be on the next post I make. Oh, and I shall not reveal who, but I will say that we've known each other for years-- this wasn't love at first sight.
We had our awards ceremony for Academic Challenge today, it was fun. That old Ruby guy can talk for ages, but at least there were skits. I didn't get any awards, as expected--I barely made it, but I swear I'll stay in this thing. There were the people that already did this program, and they were living happy, successful lives. All of that hard work and determination payed off for them, and it will me too. I just know it.

I'm bored

Yeah I'm pretty bored sitting here. I don't know why I'm not watching Doctor Who right now, I have Daleks in Manhattan ready to watch, yet I'm still bored. I have like, 5 games I could play, but I'm still bored. I would play guitar, but everyone's asleep and my arms hurt, and hey my friend is on, I shall go. But before I do that, I must say I heard the most heartless evil thing on Friday in school. We were discussing the cancer society benefit I raised money for, and here lemme loosely quote.
"What's this thing for, anyway?" said the guy
"Well, we're celebrating the fact that we may have saved lives by raising money to stop cancer."
"What for? They're just going to die anyway."
They're just going to die anyway. Yeah, but it sure feels good to know that some little kid will make it past eleven because of me. This war-loving punk, I understand that everyone doesn't like him and that he isn't evil or anything...sure. Y'know, I know he's evil, but I don't call him that. Calling people names is evil too. However, he is sometimes cruel, and insensitive, which just isn't cool. He babbles on about war, and I pretty much ignore him, I don't care about his killing machines.
Then again, there's nothing I can do about these mega far-right beliefs. I can tell he has some thoughts that border Nazism. I pretty much hate the right side-- it only exists because of conforming. I'll bet that most people are only republicans because their parents are, and their thoughts were molded to be like that. Really, look at George Bush. Only when people are allowed to think free is when they develop left-side thoughts.
For example, in class the other day, I made a reference to George Bush's poor presidential administration, and quite a few people gave me the evil eye. They said "It's congress'/the house's fault too," to which I replied with "Not since they were taken by the Democrats." Boy did I get a reaction from that! They all claim "Republican all the way." Then, a friend of mine said that "Yeah, the democratic congress is better."
Let's freeze for a second: There were five people that I remember here. One of them was me, who is pretty peaceful and kind, as I've been told. I think I'm a great person, honestly. Then, there's this one guy: he does nothing but insult people and be a homophobe. Then there's another guy: I know little about him, but I'll bet he's a lot like the first one. One of the involved girlsis pretty cool, but she was another person who hates democrats, and I know she talks bad about me when I'm not around: it's obvious because of her disgust with fat people. Now with those three last people, it's obvious they got this from their parents: you have to be taught these sort of things. Now as for one person, she's great, and she's really smart and open minded. She stands up for her beliefs, as well as others, so incidentally, she turns out as a democrat. Then again, her mom is great, much like mine. So yeah, I think parents have a lot to do with this.
Love is also very confusing. I think I'm in love, but then again so did my friend, and he'sgoing through a lot of pain right now. It seems that love is a gift and a curse. Of course, when I get older and more mature, I'll take that risk. I know now that it's quite a great feeling, especially when you fall for a great person.

Meh

Yeah I can't think of a title for this. However, I must say that at the moment something confuses me. Why in the world would anyone program their computer with a "screen invert" function? That has no practical use whatsoever, except for maybe if you wanted to hang your monitor upside down, with is pretty silly. We have Relay for Life this weekend, and it'll be fun--if I can stay a little while, as I forgot to get my permission slip signed.

I feel like everyone in my gym class hates me, or doesn't care about me. Of course there are a few exceptions but man does it seem 90% of the dudes there hate me. Of course I stand up to them, however. I mean, standing up is what lots of things were meant to do. What would a building be if it didn't stand? It'd be a big metal slug that eats people. It's pretty funny on how they insist on insulting me, it's one of three things...

• They call me "gay" which I know I'm not so whatever, I don't care
• They call me fat, like I don't know. "Hey how'd all of this fat get here?" Really, it's nothing new.
• They push and shove on me, but I push right back, so whatever.

So this proves that I'm invincible to them :D.

The band concert is in a week, and I know we'll pull through--we always do. Jazz band is on that day too, but we'll pull through-- I know it.

So I've started getting torrents of the new Doctor Who season, and it's turning out really well. Martha's great--almost better than Rose from the last two seasons. Also, my tom Baker torrent has about 1 and 1/2 weeks left. And that is the end, so bye, all -3 of my readers.

Whee

Today, May, 14. 2007, SolidShroom, or Frank Stewart III for those of you not in the know, has a blog. I already have a googlepages page (two, actually-- http://www.solidsbox.googlepages.com , (For Metal Gear Solid obsession) and http://solidshroom.googlepages.com (for general stuff)). This blog shall be updated whenever I get the chance, and I'll pstt just about anything I feel like discussing on here, be it music, games, politics, random crap, or just regular crap. So yeah, be sure to check here fairly often.

Anyway, to get to some normal content, I must say that I am beyond thrilled that school is on its way to an end. Really, I'm pretty much burnt out of everything school-wise. I just can't wait till we do the Science/Social Studies DSTP tests, so anything really hard will be over, considering my (wrongfully titled-- it felt like ULTRA MEGA HELICOPTER-EATING HARD Algebra) intermediate algebra and Writing skills classes are both over, and I passed them both. Now I have just my Science class--it's running smoothly--and my history class, which is pretty easy; it's non-honors and we have a mega generous teacher who curves our grades a lot. As for video games, things are pretty dull. I have Super Paper Mario and Pokémon Pearl to beat, but I haven't played them lately. I've been playing a lot of guitar lately though. At least 2 hours a day. Seriously.

Anyway, Neil Young is a genius. I've been listening to him a lot lately (In fact, I'm now listening to "Cinnamon Girl") and I've realized that he is a true American (Even though he's from Canada, heh). His outlook is great, and his songs are always true, never phony. It's especially great how he's got a song called "Let's impeach the President." It's so true, really, it is! Of course, protesters protest the crap out of this protest song. It's usually claims of things like "that Canadian guy should go back to Canada if you don't like it here," because, Lord knows, not liking Bush means not liking America and Loving terrorism.